My grandma recently passed away and I have been having a very hard time dealing with it. I have become paranoid, even more anxious than usual, and very much in a haze most days. There isn’t a second that goes by when I don’t think of her, and I have dreams about her every night. There have been only 2 nights that I can think of since her death that I have not dreamt about her (that I was aware of).

I was raised Catholic, and went to Catholic school my entire life until college. This was a result of growing up in a large Irish Catholic family.

My grandmother, living her life as a devout Catholic woman, would not want me to convert back to Catholicism if it did not make me happy, but I am wondering now if another “family away from home” would bring me comfort and may help me get through these tough times. The familiarity of it all might help me feel more complete in my life. I live 850 miles away from my family, and it is hard to process all of this without their face-to-face help and support.

On the other hand, there are A LOT of Catholic practices that really perplex me, and make me downright angry.

Has anyone gone through this type of grief before? If so, how did you deal with it, and is turning to religion a good idea or just something to bring you to another dead end?

1. whiteelephantintheroom liked this
2. youcantrytoswimthesea answered: You can try going back to church but it sounds like you are going through some bereavement right now and maybe some counseling would help
3. aestheticyouth answered: I’m not so great with religion (faith has been more of my thing), but have you tried keeping a journal? That’s always helped me.
4. happinessisgreys answered: sorry for ranting, but your story really hit close to home fore me. about two years ago, my mom passed away ( ill go to your ask or somethin
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